insecure // A Play in Four Acts

Interdum stultus bene loquitur*

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As we can see, side proposition has constructed a very detailed argument, I begin, my carefully-penned outlines trembling in my hands, shaking legs supporting an unwavering voice. Unfortunately for them, detail doesn’t mean durability.

It’s okay. It’s okay. Just breathe.

–and see, even Einstein failed his math classes, so why should such strict academic streaming be implemented?

Oh. Oh, no. That’s wrong, that’s all wrong, he didn’t actually fail math that’s a myth I know I know please stop looking at me like that Isaac IknowIwaswrongIwaswrongIwas–

You did great up there!

You guys really held your own. I’m so proud of you!

Kim! Kim, you won best speaker of the round! Against last year’s champions!

No no no you got it all wrong I was terrible and they did so much better YOU did so much better We did so great, guys! I can’t believe it! and I messed it up why did the judge pick me I got it wrong I got it wrong I was so nervous and disorganizedandIcouldn’tanswerthequestion– Continue reading “insecure // A Play in Four Acts”

When You’re Not Sure If It’s Wrong

“Is it a sin?” you wonder quietly to yourself. “The Bible never mentions it.”

It is true that the Bible doesn’t directly touch on many issues that we face today. Computers weren’t around when Jesus walked the Earth; nor were cell phones, magazines, tennis shoes, or cereal. We live in an environment that would be completely foreign to anyone living even just a century before us; and we live among temptations and ideals that even some of the adults in our lives don’t understand.

“Back in my day, if you wanted to see a beautiful girl on a truck in a bikini, you had to work for it!” reads a quote meant to be humorous in a men’s magazine. It points to a sad truth: the pathways to sin are now well-paved after years of blazing the trails; the wide path with the heavy yoke is looking easier than ever before. Continue reading “When You’re Not Sure If It’s Wrong”

Trusting God’s Plan

Lately I’ve been really struggling with giving my life over to God’s plan.

It’s hard to admit it, but deep down I’m afraid that God’s plan won’t match up with my plan. That’s the heart of it. So often we face this struggle–what if God doesn’t want me to date this person? What if God doesn’t want me to go to college? (Or what if he does?) What if He doesn’t want me to do [insert something you want to do here]?

It’s tough. It really, truly, is. Everyone struggles with their own desires overshadowing God’s–and everyone struggles with wondering if God’s plan is really as good as the Bible says it is. It’s okay to ask and to wonder and to question. But what should we do when we find ourselves doubting God’s plan and being afraid that we won’t like it?

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The Porn We Don’t Talk About: Erotica

The Bible talks a lot about “abstaining from sexual immorality”; and aside from premarital sex, one of the first things that comes to mind is pornography.

Porn is a terrible struggle—it’s embarrassing, it’s hard to break free from, and it’s permanently altering. It’s also often shrouded under stereotypes and lies. Porn is a guys-only struggle. Porn is only what the worst sinners struggle with. Anyone who watches porn is permanently messed up. In my opinion, though, the worst one is porn is pictures or videos of people engaged in sexual acts.

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